Victory!
Dragon = slain.
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Hunting a dragon
(less than) 48 hours to go before I redeem myself.
Anatomy mid-term, I’m winning this time!
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Wet Lab Shenanigans
NOTE: I would NEVER condone disrespecting the cadavers. We should be forever mindful that these people gave their last worldly possession, their body, for us to study.
… The above being said, what I’m about to tell you relates to a couple of professors ranking on each other, specifically about their own bodies.
Normally, Dr. S and Dr. Y are two of the most straightforward no-bullshit people you’ll meet. The other day, however, I think there was a little bit more formalin in the air than usual. A few buddies and I, under the guidance of Dr. Y., were reviewing the heart for our upcoming midterm exam. Dr. S was doing the same with another group of people. Lacking a proper heart for his demonstration, as the one he’d selected was torn to shreds (as unfortunately happens when too many students handle the specimens too roughly), Dr. Y asked Dr. S if he could “borrow his heart,” at which point Dr. S. launches into this hilarious tirade about how his “heart’s too small”. I think there was another corny crack about getting at the “heart of the matter”… ha, ha. Dr. S. told Dr. Y. that Dr. Y’s heart was “plenty big” and sufficient for demonstration to which Dr. Y. replies “What are you suggesting? Autocardiothoracodectomy?” (AKA: “Self-directed removal of heart from thorax”).
Mind you, we’re all cracking up the whole time as Dr. S. and Dr. Y. are trading barbs.
And then the visiting professors arrive and we all get back to work.
Return
So I made it to Grenada somehow in one piece after a 36-hour grind. Long story short: I don’t travel well… AKA I can’t sleep when I travel.
Friday morning went about routine things, went lifting, then started packing. I Spent some time with my grandmother as she is visiting my family for the week and hopped a shuttle to the airport at around 6:45 PM. I arrived at the airport around 8 PM then killed four hours people watching, mostly. My flight took off at 12:45 AM.
And because I can’t sleep when I travel… well… I didn’t sleep. In truth, I took a series of short naps but that’s nowhere near as restful as an uninterrupted sleep.
7AM Saturday I was back in my dorm room at SGU and told myself I couldn’t sleep until I got my stuff unpacked and set up… I finally collapsed into bed around 10PM and woke up today feeling great! Most of today was spent getting the last few things in order, saying hello to friends, and flipping through my Anatomy textbook. Classes start tomorrow. Time to get this done so I can move on.
<Odd segue>
The funny thing about traveling is that you could meet some interesting people along the way. The cabbie I took to the airport, for instance, was a 20-year expat from Turkey. He moved to the US, he told me, because opportunities in Turkey were scarce. His two principal businesses are an ice cream truck during the summer and driving airport shuttles during the winter. Conversing with him helped the two hour shuttle ride to the airport fly by (pun intended). At the airport bar met this one barmaid, and this stuck in my mind, who told me that her life’s dream was to be a veterinarian. She told me that she couldn’t get into vet school at the time she graduated college because the “climate for acceptance” (her words) was bad. So now she works at the bar nights and does personal fitness training during the day. Told me that she used to be a competitive powerlifter… and she was wearing a chain with a barbell medallion on it (go figure!) She gave me a few pointers on how to up my bench press, which was nice, and also told me that when she retired from her jobs would probably get involved with the ASPCA. The hilarious thing is that my flight was full of vet students and correspondingly, animals.
</Odd segue>… Just needed to put it down somewhere.
Back to The Rock…
I’m returning Grenada on Saturday. The objective for this term is to finally put Anatomy behind me and not let the course director fuck with my head. Hopefully the extra time I have, given that Anatomy is the only class I’ll be taking, will be beneficial. The struggle, though, will be staying calm. But this has to get done, if I have any hope of continuing on this path that I’ve chosen. And this is something that I want. Period.
“…The question is, do you possess the constitution, the depth of faith, to go as far is as needed?”
A quote from Boondock Saints, a once-upon-a-time favorite movie of mine. It pretty much summarizes what it is I’m doing here: I’m pushing my body and brain to their fullest potential in hopes that one day I will be able to introduce myself as “Doctor”. It seems, however, that it will take me a little bit longer than I intended provided my luck doesn’t run out first (will be explained a little bit later).
I failed my Anatomy midterm two weeks ago. The exam was incredibly difficult, my colleagues will corroborate that statement, but what happened to me was more of a psychological thing. I’d made Anatomy such a monster in my own head, got bogged down in the sheer volume of details that we were expected to have committed to memory, that when I sat for the exam I went into a “flat spin”. I couldn’t think straight and frankly I was having a panic attack in the middle of the exam hall. When you’re in the trenches, though, the only thing you can do is grit your teeth and power through as best as possible. I tried as best as I could, to no avail.
There was that and there was also the fact that my now ex-girlfriend decided to call it quits. “I can’t handle this distance, and you can’t expect me to wait for you and not have any idea where this is going” is what she told me. A three year relationship flushed down the tubes in the amount of time it took her to say that sentence.
Talk about a double-whammy. I was a wreck for quite a while… I can’t even remember how long. Thank God for my colleagues, though. They helped me out of it.
All problem are, however, solvable. I entered the IAP program (affectionately known as “decelling”) wherein next term I will be taking only anatomy. Technically there is still no guarantee that I will pass the class but given that it’s the only class I’ll be taking the odds are heavily in my favor to have my way with this beast. The only problem I foresee is that my colleagues will all be ahead in Term 2 classes while I’ll be stuck in Term 1, but it’s a small sacrifice to make to ensure my dream does not die.
And most recently, a certain someone has made things more… enjoyable… shall we say. That is all I’m saying about that.
Note: Entry written at three different points in time over the same night, so I apologize if it’s vague and disjointed.